Nov 17, 2012

Poem: I'm Sure (and some rambling)

So, I just re-read my last post. And thought, wow that happened in the summer. Mid-Summer. It's now mid November. A lot has happened between me getting lost in Vancouver and thinking I burnt down a house til now. Well, not a lot persay. Just time. Time has happened. I do remember over the last few months going "I could blog about this" I really did think about it. But even in my head it always sounded so preachy and pointless. Less like me and more like I was just blogging for the sake of having a post for people to read, and to make me sound intelligent. Although I did have a mental freak out at a lady that I wanted to post about what it means to be Canadian. I think I should post that later. But not now because I actually know what I am going to post right now. Nothing epically fantastic mind, just an idea I've got. But I think I'll finish with that, I'm having to much fun rambling right now.

So I still a Crew Trainer at McDonalds. I'm still a Youth Leader and still help in Sunday School. I still don't like white chocolate but am eating it right now because I really want chocolate, have run out of milk chocolate and detest the dark stuff.

I still write though, I promise I still write. I have finished my short story "The Third School" (maybe I'll post it on here later for you all to read) and am working on characters for a novel. And I was getting so excited because I only had two characters left to do before I could start plotting and actually ACTUALLY working on the story. Just Granny and Moe and I would be done. But then - George. George happened. I have to add another character. Oh well. I am still writing.

Well anyways, what I was actually going to write about to you. I have decided, while looking through my iPod stuff, that I have some poems. And really poetry isn't meant to be kept to oneself. And while I think I have shown them to some people I think I want to share it with more. And what better way then this. (Apparently Facebook gets the rights if you post it there). So every so often I'll post a poem I wrote. Just for the fun of it.

Anyways this is one of my favourites called "I'm Sure?" that I wrote back in January. (I also like how poetry looks under a 'centered' format)

I'M SURE

How stunning is the frost that comes
To turn the flesh to stone -
I'm sure that Jack meant well
I'm sure that Jack meant squat,
I'm sure that colours bored the child
And that's why Jack is Frost.

How radiant the sunrise
That kills the night away -
I'm sure the sun meant well
I'm sure the colours too,
But starlight always led the lost
And now the clouds will too.

How elegant the fall of man
Which led us all astray -
I'm sure it came a quite surprise
I'm sure they weren't prepared,
I'm sure they never knew too well
That Death had such the skill.

How dazzling does that life do come
It comes to take you home -
I'm sure that Death was sure he won
I'm sure that you were too
But artists always loved the art
And God the people too.

Jul 28, 2012

Upside down, Inside out, and all shook up

So I started writing this post while the sun was still up, drinking a class of cola, listening to random YouTube videos trying to convince myself that I really am truly awake. I'm not posting this until tomorrow - when I've had the time to go through it and edit it. You'll see why this is necessary as you read this. Right now, I'm exhausted. So why am I blogging while I'm tired? Well, I think I can remember more of yesterday and its effects while I'm tired? Well I just wanna get it out while its still fresh in my mind. (Really I didn't know at the time, and frankly, I still don't)

So my post really begins on Tuesday. On Tuesday I started house sitting for some friends of mine. I was making myself some mac-and-cheese, real style (so real macaroni and shredded cheese, not that boxed stuffed) and one piece of cheese fell (unnoticed) under the element. The next night (Wednesday) I'm making dinner again and suddenly "whooof" the unnoticed cheese is on fire. Remarkably I don't panic (probably has to do with the fact that it was a small flame) but turn of the element and move the stove (no, I didn't move the stove. I moved the element, pot.) I moved the POT onto a different element. (This is why I shouldn't write when I'm tired) The flame died quickly. This is important.

Anyways, so Wednesday night was also a young adults night, and the plan was to go to a lighthouse and beach in Vancouver. I got a ride out with three of my friends (Eowyn, Katrina and Serena), but the directions we had were faulty. At one point it told us to turn right, so we did. We get ALL the way to the end of the road to realize it was the wrong way, back tracked and continued on. We were supposed to go left, not right. But anyways, we eventually figured it out and made it to the park.

We had fun. It was nice and relaxing, and the scenery was beautiful. Then we left for home.

Left being the key and operative word there. Remember we have faulty directions. And we are trying to read them backwards. It is also dark out, so we are reading these faulty directions - backwards - by the eight-seconds glow of a cellphone. So of course, we missed a step. Needless to say, we were lost. We tried to find ourselves though, going back to the last street we remembered thinking we just had to go the other way, which only got us more and more and more lost. Finally we decided we would go to the Safeway we had seen earlier (it was on one of the steps anyways) and go in and ask for directions. So we headed in the direction we thought it was and kept going
and going
and going
and going
all the way to the Marina. The Marina wasn't on any of the directions, nor had we passed it earlier. So we head back down the road. A few minutes later we spotted something, a sign. The sign telling us we were at the Lighthouse Park! We were back to square one. It was a miracle really. Cause then we went slower and carefully followed the directions (getting minorly lost only one more time) and we were on the highway home!

It only took half an hour, or so. Could have been longer.

So all we want to do now is to go home. There was two lanes of slow moving traffic (which we were in) and one quick moving lane. So of course, we go into the quick moving lane. Only to realize the reason it was going quicker was because they were all being forced to merge back into the lane we just pulled out of. So we were now FARTHER back then before. Whoops. And then both lanes of slow moving traffic had to merge into one lane. But we got through it and finally ended up back home.

All of that driving naturally meant that we needed to get gas. So we stopped at a local gas station in town, and while Eowyn was filling up the tank an ambulance went by - in the general direction of the house I am house-sitting (also my house and my church are in the same direction) and for some reason the first honest-to-goodness thought I think is "I really hope I didn't burn the house down." Eowyn assured me that I didn't burn the house down as we continued on our journey.

So we turn onto the street that I'm house sitting on and what do we see? Six to eight or so sets of blue and cherry lights (police and ambulances). Now, although there is no orange glow and no smoke I am now CONVINCED I have burnt down someone else's house! And Eowyn isn't sounding so sure when she says "No, you couldn't have" So we go the long way around - since you can't really just cut through a bunch of police cars that are just sitting there. By the time we get to the house - which is still standing, NOT on fire nor ever on fire - there is only one police vehicle left. We think it was an accident that had happened or something, but we don't know for sure.

Needless to say I went to bed just after midnight - and had to work at six in the morning.

So, I realized I was wrong. I didn't write this all on Thursday like I said I was going too. I was way to tired (and you can read why right above you) and ended up zoning out instead. And then the next day I was too busy going to the movies with my cousin. So I finish this now, and will edit it later when I get home. Not that it really matters, seeing as you get to read it all at once.

Anyways, thank you for sharing in the enjoyment of last Wednesday night.

Although for the record. It was a super fun night. And I would repeat it again in a heartbeat.

Well, go back to that night and go through it again, I would rather not get lost in Vancouver at night or think I have burnt down someones house. It was just a fun crazy night that I am going to remember for ever and tell all my grandchildren about when they complain their GPS (or whatever techno stuff they have then) breaks down.

Hollie

Jul 15, 2012

A poem

So I wrote a poem today. I didn't really mean to. I just got two lines, so I wrote them down. Then I got a few more lines, so I wrote them down. And then a few more, and so on and so on. And I had a poem.

Before I let you read it, let me tell you something random. If you ever want to confuse someone honestly answer the question "How are you today?" - especially if the answer is 'horrible' or 'not so good.' At work I always ask my customers how they're day is going and one day on of them asked "Do you really even care?" I thought about it for a moment and I was. I really do like to know how people are doing, and make their days go better.

Also, lots of times, even with people I know, I get told "I'm fine" even if their not. And I don't really know why. So this poem is kinda about that.

And no, it doesn't have a title.


Don't tell me that you're fine
When I see brokenness inside,
Your lips, they smile
Your eyes, they cry.
Desperately pleading
Silently screaming
Insisting always "I'm fine."

I have two shoulders, ears and arms,
Crying eyes and a healing heart,
Shoulders trained to hold your tears
Ears to listen, arms to hold
Eyes to cry cause you're not alone -
A healing heart that's not yet whole

I'm not fine
And you're not too,
But I know the One
Who'll bring us through


And that is my latest poem

Hollie